I've almost gone into hiding, if you will, from God because I feel like I can't be forgiven of the same sins over and over again. “I don't understand what I'm doing. For I do not do what I want, but I do what I hate” (New International Version, Romans 7:15). I realize, however, that in my weakness the power of Jesus is made perfect. “Therefore, so that I would not be presumptuous, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger from Satan, to torment me. Three times I begged the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me: "My grace is sufficient for you, because my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will gladly boast of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. This is why, for the love of Christ, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong” (2 Corinthians 12.7-10). The absence of the fruits of the Spirit in my life inhibits the kingdom of God in my life as His power is not fully noticed in my actions and character. Being in Christ and belonging to His kingdom sets me apart from the world and therefore I must live for Him and serve Him as I seek His kingdom first. When I am lost in my desires of the flesh, I do not seek His kingdom. Rather, I look for my desires and