“English teachers usually ask about reading assignments, questions designed to bring out points I had decided they should know.”, this is what started to distract me from reading and writing. By eighth grade I had drastically reduced the amount of reading and writing I did to the minimum of what I had been assigned. Personal expression and freedom to learn what interested me became limited. My love, the passion, has dimmed compared to seeing the moon in the morning when the sun is rising, barely there, but still noticed. During eighth grade and beyond, I began to develop a pattern in reading and writing formulated by all of my former teachers. All the teachers I had met up to that point shared the same perspective and so created my model: read this book and write from these selected topics. My thoughts were wrapped up in “WRITING IS PUNISHMENT” and starting with Brave New World I started “growing up with what psychologists call an 'instinctive' hatred for books…” luckily his hatred didn't wear off completely